Bittersweet Life...

Thursday, July 22, 2004

today, had e math again. pathetic as usual. had a math test... dun give a damn. this test confirm fail. coz i didnt even practice any of the sums. as for ss, mdm gill kept pickin on suz and liya... werent they pissed juz now. so, my grp proved her wrong by gettin the work done the fastest and presented the crap tt she wanted 1st. hah! take tt back mdm gill... eng was boring again. stoopid lah... malas nak type bout it. bio remedial was fun. not fun as in fun...but, ya noe, fun. yeah. wateva. ema & rahman was like so childish. they were beating and chasing each other with the wooden ruler. ema, gotta sth to say to u. are dumb...really. u are so scared of being beaten up, yet u played ard with. kalo ur dearest useless salim can help u, nvm lah. but, oh... forget it. hehe... oh yeah, sotongz and elfi also was like chasin each other. immature peeps! hehe... pop test juz now was more like a speed test... but it was 4 our own gd anyways.

today, nth much happen lah. again, lotsa teachers talked to us about our attitude towards o level. i really wanna study, but when i dunno the solution to a prob, doesnt matter sci or math, i get demoralise easily, and then i juz give up. i noe i should, and im not tt kinda person who wants to fail and give up everything. so how? my dearest fwens... plz push me. nag at me. get angry at me. i dun care. plz help me realize tt i have not been studying. not tt i dunno... juz push me ya? im gonna try motivate myself at home... at sch, when i c ais and hui shan like doin they work, i feel so lil. but when the teachs were like givin us advice, i feel really gd... really motivated. scared too actually. but i juz dun understand how hui shan and ais can, u noe, like do those sch stuff. argh! irks me so much juz talking bout me gettin into the studyn gear.

life stinks! where muz it be so hard on us? y muz it so much pressure to succeed? y izzit so impt to live up to ppl's expectations? i noe it's gd tt peeps do have high expectations of us, but y dun we have confidence in ourselves? we wont noe the ans...coz it's not on paper.

Smashed into pieces at 7/22/2004 05:23:00 PM